kneel down to pray
no words come to say
try the good ol love You Lord
only so many times can you adore
wonderin what to say so unsure
need so deeply to be heard
cant find the way out of this mess
how can it be undone
how can it turn around
from the heart comes a cry
so deep
so rough
so loud
help
please help
the tears flow
the body shakes
but what is left when the cry is gone
a mind still so unsure
a heart still aching
lost
so lost
where is the way out
is it a drunken night
a doped up mind
a pleasurable fling
no
no its not
though the flesh desires it
its prayer
its love from on high
but how is this found
when words do not flow
when all thats there is the normal
hey Lord
love Ya God
hallelu
and its done
its over
its finished
what more can be said
with a heart so confused
it seemed so right before
all things were sure
but life happens
caught in the wind
twirled around to the music
got lost amidst it
music of life
cares of the world
too many bills
too much debt
where to live
how to eat
why this and why that
who loves you
who doesnt
it wasnt supposed to happen
why did it go wrong
why cant it turn around
straight
go straight
remember what is says
straight and narrow is the way
the heart knows
how can you go
eyes are blinded
the mess to much
to thick
to tangled
hear a voice
please my child
come to me
so far
too far it seems
why
WHY
why must You be so far
cannot reach You
cannot see You
felt You the other day
You brushed past
reached out
called out
but it wasnt enough
it wasnt Your fault
it was mine
got tired
weary
laid down to rest
wasnt trying my best
please
dont let it be the last chance
once more will You please
try again
dont give up
please
trying to keep my head up
dont want to miss You again
so sorry my words fail me
so sorry
it hurts so much to kneel down to pray
and have nothing to say
my plea is to You
draw near
touch me so
need Your love
please take control
cant do it on my own
slowly dying without You near
wont You reach out and touch me
just once more
It is I
- EstherH
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4 comments:
wow. i love this Ed.
Esther,
I am reading this through blurry vision...the tears just seem to flow. I know exactly how the person is feeling. I'm there right now...
Love you love you love you!
Thanks Virg, I love you.
Jael, believe me I understand how your feeling, because the person is me!!!! I don't understand why it happens, but it will pass. Feb 19, I couldn't understand how I was feeling and why but I made myself sit down and just write it out and this is what I wrote. It was for me more than anything, it made me face the truth of it all. But last Tuesday I broke through some of it, I'm still trying to rid myself of some of it but it will take time. It's a fight for sure. But you can make and I can make it!! Because God loves us no matter what! I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE you!
Very raw and very true. Thank you.
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